Friday, July 19, 2002
Finally an email from B—. I don't know if I'm happy or sad that he didn't find out anything. Happy, I guess. Maybe now he'll come back and forget about all this. Maybe it'll sink in that he's going to be a father and he'll take some responsibility.
I don't think it's really sunk in for me yet, anyway. Am I being an idiot, keeping this baby? I have no career and no stability. Then again, I have no career and no stability. Depends which way you look at it, really. I mean, Olga had her first kid when she was younger than me, and although I can't exactly say that she 'turned out all right' she certainly doesn't seem to have thrown her life away. Anyway, I like going with the flow. That's what's always rubbed mom the wrong way about me, even more now that she's all independent and new-lifey.
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